Thank you and Goodbye

i think a lot of ppl are deceived by how a person realli is just by looking at her. and it's especially sad if it is ur own frens.

my sister and i may look to happy and carefree ppl to most. but only we both kno the kind of torture and suffering we went thru/are still gg thru to keep our minds sane and mentalities normal. i can also safely say that even most of our own frens do not kno wat we are gg thru, cuz we dun like to talk abt it. or at least for me, i dun like to talk abt it cuz it makes me unhappy. u can call that living in denial or wateva, but it makes me feel better, so who is anyone to judge? it's not like me being happy or sad is going to affect your life, right? perhaps it is worse for my sister as she went thru quite a bit more than me in terms of what-you-call LIFE.

as a result, we portray to others a deception of the life we realli lead. it isn't realli a happy life.

it's weird that ppl expect u to wear ur heart on ur sleeve.. cuz i can't believe that they dun kno when one is smiling, it does not necessarily mean one is happy and when one is crying, it does not mean one is sad.

i have heard somewhere before, that the most joyful and cheerful person u kno, may be the most depressed one in reality. it is like striking a balance in life.. cuz u kno u r unhappy, hence, u r alwaes trying to stay happy by being cheerful ard others.

i think my sister and i are such persons. but only we realli kno each other's moods.. and i dun think anyone shud b in any position to tell us how we shud behave or act. EVEN IF I OWE U THE WORLD, U STILL HAVE NO RIGHT. who is to say what one does is right or wrong? are u GOD?

this nv occurs to many ppl but i strongly believe that not everyone can offer help. you can only offer help if you have the means. and so, if u have offered help to someone before, do not ask for the help back. it is jus wrong. and it jus means u had no means to offer help in the 1st place.

lastly, i thank God for those friends that nv abandoned us or made baseless assumptions abt us during this while. and as for those who did, thank you for your help but we cannot afford ur friendship.

Thank you and Goodbye.