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Sunday, February 28, 2010

When East meets West

When Takuya is in the house, even Beyonce's beauty fades in comparison.

Oh and hello ppl, I'm HOME! :)

Tuesday, February 09, 2010


Gonna be another long hiatus before you see a new post here because:

1. A close relative just passed away so I shall busy helping out with funeral.
2. Biscuit shop is getting busier as CNY creeps closer. Will be helping out as and when I can over the last few days before CNY.
3. CEO is town this week so everyday in office is a MAD RUSH. No coming to work late and no leaving early. Doing anything personal during office hours is an absolute NO-NO.
4. Because of reason no. 3, I am unable to plan for my upcoming Japan trip in office. Will have to do them in my spare time at home, after I have fulfilled my commitments for reason no. 1 and 2.
5. Japan trip is coming up and I will absolutely not blog when I am in Japan!

Last and final reason, I AM SICK! I am gonna use all the time I have left to catch some ZZZZs before I leave for Japan to build up my body resistance. Wouldn't wanna arrive in Narita sick and faint.

This means the earliest you will hear from me, is Mar 1 (or later) when I return to Singapore (and after all this madness is over).


Last but not least, wanna wish everyone: 恭喜发财,身体健康,心想事成,笑口常开!

新年快乐!恭祝大家,虎年行大运! :)

Monday, February 01, 2010

Back To The Future

I woke up feeling very refreshed and rested and strolled over to my mother-in-law's (MIL) room. Once I stepped in. the smell of baby powder hit me instantly and as I looked at the happy baby in the cot, he smiled up at me and reached out to me with both hands.

I picked him up from his cot and he instantly clung on to me like a koala bear and nestled his face in the crook of my neck, while he coo-ed to himself. I walked him to the balcony and he smiled happily at the gentle breeze that massaged his sweet face.

When I looked down at him, just inches from my face, I saw that he had such big round eyes like mine when I was young and had a small and handsome face that looked a lot like hubby when he was a child this age. He was so beautiful.. so happy.. and so pleasant to be around.

I had to get ready for work so I put him back into his cot, in my MIL's care and I went to take my shower and left for work.

As I left the house and the door closed behind me, I woke up from the dream.

Sigh, it was a dream. I dunno why I dreamt of a boy when the lab test results showed that it was a baby girl that I had. Maybe this boy is my next child.. or maybe it is God's way of reminding me of the reasons I wanted to be a mother in the 1st place.

I had kind of forgotten why over the past few weeks, with so much distractions and so many things happening. I let other ppl influence my decision of wanting a baby and because of them, my plans will have to wait now. They make me so angry and sad that I could not see myself and my reasons anymore. I just wanted to everything to end.

But the dream that I had made me glad again, made me see the possibilities of a happy life that I may have with a baby. Despite all the difficulties I may have to go through with pregnancy, I think the end result will be worth it. It feels as though the dream was showing me a scene from my future, that everything will eventually turn out well, that I will learn to love and trust again.

So with that, I will try my best to put the past behind and start over. To look forward to pregnancy again and of course, to look forward to the time when I will finally have my baby in my arms, smiling that happy, innocent smile at me, surrounded by family who will genuinely be happy for us.