I hate this part right here.

I have a friend who once had to go for an abortion cuz she fell pregnant after she broke up with her bf. I was young and unmarried then.. I didn't know that it's not good (pantang) to follow someone for an abortion cuz it is like a sin and you are endorsing it. Apparently it will bring bad luck to your own pregnancy when you fall pregnant in future.

The same friend, recently fell pregnant AGAIN, and the current bf does not want it and so she has to go for an abortion again. She has asked me for help to accompany her and as a friend, I truly want to be there for her at this time but at the same time.. I do not wish to be involved.. and I really do not know how to say no. I feel sad for her for always meeting such rotten men but I am also angry with her for not knowing how to protect herself.

I am assuming she does not know about the "pantang" stuff, that's why she is asking me for help. I had just gone through a traumatizing pregnancy which ended in 3 months and I do not feel comfortable going through with this. It reminds me too much of the pain and feels like I am bringing bad karma to myself and my next pregnancy.

I am so angry with her and frustrated with myself for being angry at her!!! HOW??? What should I do?!