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24 Weeks

I had a very eventful week last week.

I was hospitalized for the 1st time in my life last Wednesday due to stomach flu. I was vomiting the entire night on Tuesday and by Wednesday morning, I was completely washed out and had absolutely nothing left in my body.

I was asked to be admitted by my gynae for fear of dehydration which could lead to contraction of my uterus and prompt a pre-term delivery. So I checked into Thomson Medical Centre directly after seeing my gynae and she started me on drip that morning until the next. I had 6 packs of fluids (each 500ml) given to me and only by the 5th pack did I start going to the toilet.

It was amazing how when you are on drip, you don't feel hungry at all. I did not eat a morsel of food for 2 days straight and yet I didn't feel hungry. Or maybe I was just too sick to want to eat anything.

I figured that being put on drip would be a good way to lose weight! But I felt very very bloated for the whole day even after being removed from the drip.

I was discharged late Thursday afternoon even though my gynae had asked me to stay for one more day. (I had a wedding dinner to attend the next day & I did not want to miss it!) I regretted my decision immediately when I reached home cuz I felt unwell again and had to stay curled up in bed to wait for it to pass. I only had 1 meal that day.

The next few days I felt very disappointed and depressed with myself. I have not been watching what I eat and I've been so careless with my food choices. I ended up with stomach flu and now gynae says now baby is underweight. :( I feel like such a bad mother already. I spent the whole day yesterday at home crying and I could not help it. I just felt so depressed. I hope it is just my hormones. This also worries me cuz I think I might have post-natal depression.

I am worrying so much and about so much. Hubs asks me not to give myself so much pressure but I can't help it. Who doesn't want the best for their children? I am just so angry with myself for not being able to take care of bubs at this early stage and with something so easy to do.

Now at 6 months, and with 3 more months to go, I feel like it is such a long journey ahead. I pray I will not make another mistake and endanger bub's well-being again.

I also hope I won't get additional stress at work and at home.. I just want the next 3 months to pass without any hiccups and as eventless as possible..

*with all my fingers and toes crossed, and with a little help from God hopefully... *

23 Weeks

Some days I feel like time is passing so slowly.. But today, I feel like time is maybe going faster than I thought.

Next week I will be 6 months pregnant. It sure did not feel that long. While I am looking forward to finally holding bubs in my arms, I am also enjoying having bubs inside me, with me as his only connection to the outside world.

Every day I will tell hubs what bubs did today, whether he moved a lot, whether he kicked harder than usual, or that he has been a sleepyhead throughout the day.

It's like carrying this baby inside me makes him truly mine.

I once read in Karen Cheng's blog, that after she delivered her 3rd child (which she says will be her last), she felt alone.. cuz she was the only person left inside her body.

That stuck with me. Even though I have not delivered my bubs, it hit me as though I had lived through that and I could relate to it.

Anyone taking bets that I would be an obsessive/possessive mother? The odds are not good! :p

So I told hubs that we should complete all our baby shopping before I go into the 3rd trimester. Next week I would be 24 weeks and 3rd trimester begins in week 28. This means I only have 1 month left to prepare for bubs arrival! I still have many many things unchecked on my shopping list! The only time hubs and I have time to go shopping together is the weekends and 1 month means 4 weekends, 4 weekends means 8 days!

Not forgetting, in the next 4 weeks, we have 1 baby shower to attend, 2 weddings in Singapore, 1 weekend wedding overseas for hubs and prenatal class begins on week 26! That is a total loss of 7 weekend days and it leaves us with effectively 1 full weekend day to do our baby shopping.

M.A.D.N.E.S.S.

Oh well, I guess this nature's way of preparing us for a life with a newborn!

And because this is the life I wanted and fought so hard for, I will complete everything that needs to be done on my checklist before bub's arrival and do them well!

So it's back to online shopping for my diaper bag now. Heh heh, baby or not, a girl needs to shop. Some things don't change! :P