i've hit one of those dry spells in terms of updating my blog. perhaps i have not had time to myself.. hence have not had time to formulate thots in my mind to blog abt.

i find myself losing myself more and more these days.

everyday i go to work, finish my work, go home. eat dinner, watch tv, go to bed. the next day it happens all over again. when the weekends come, i am alwaes gg to baby showers, birthday parties, wedding dinners, family dinners. no joke.. this has been the case for a few months now. it was fun initially, but i am realli tired of it now. i jus want to have time, for myself.

i am so tired of going out.. so much so that i have not been out with friends, neither have i been out on my own..

i have jus been holing up at home, (or rather "room") watching re-runs of F.R.I.E.N.D.S, "How I met your mother", "Whose line is it anyway", "The Ellen DeGeneres Show", "Oprah" and whatever the TV shows.

i don't realli kno what i want to do with myself. lately i find myself doing things on auto-pilot mode. i'm jus doing it.. not realli immersing in it.

did i also mention how much i am hating work right now? i realli hate it. EVERYTHING abt it.

all of a sudden, the devil inside me is back.. the one i've spent years trying to curb it from re-surfacing again.. has resurfaced.

i hate myself right now.

POSB "Rain" TVC

I know thisad has been ard for a while.. in fact it is probably no longer seen ard these days. but i especially like it because of the very beautiful girl in it.. and somehow she reminds me of the younger me. perhaps it's the sch uniform and the ponytail with fringe.



every time i see the part when the girl's face light up upon seeing someone coming to her with a brolly in the rain.. i think back to those days when i was in primary sch and my mom would alwaes be waiting for me to come home in the sch bus downstairs our hse with the brolly when it rains. those days are my happiest cuz i get to see my mom 15 min earlier than usual. it's jus something very magical abt standing in the bus and seeing my mom appearing larger and larger outside the bus.. her eyes darting ard looking for me as i alight the bus.

maybe i am missing my mom. or my childhood.

anyhow, this is one of my favourite ads ever.