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Sunday, August 31, 2008

crazy weekends and more ahead~

things i am panicking over - 1. the groom does not have matching shoes, 2. the makeup artiste may not know how i want my hair done, 3. all the colours in the function room may not match up.. ok there are probably one million other things i am fretting over.

i dunno why. i have been very jumpy and temperamental for the past 2 weeks. :( it is not a good feeling and i dun like it.

now i understand wat it means when ppl say, "i am too tired to be feeling excited".

maybe it's jus me. i make everything look so simple. but when i actually start to do it.. it is far from wat it seems.. and i dun take such things well.

i shud be feeling excited. but somehow my spirits are dampened. it is absolutely not how i envisioned it to be. very depressing.

my girlies and i are gonna be putting up at Hotel XXXXX this weekend and i dun have half the things i need for the party. :(

another grp of pals want to do Zouk this Friday.. and suddenly i am so not in the mood for club. i dun want to feel like that but i can't control it.

i find myself feeling a bit like Carrie in Sex and the city.

all i wanted was to snuggle up on the couch with *him* every weekend.. fall asleep by *his* side every night.. watch *him* eat my less-than-delicious cooking like a hungry solider.. and live like the happiest girl alive.

how did things boil down to such technicality it is now?

i am so not the happiest girl right now. :(

Sunday, August 24, 2008

quick quick quick.. i have a lot of updates!!

From my post dated Aug 13:
1. Alter my white dress - and i dun realli kno if the tailor can do wat needs to be done.. - DONE! Collecting it on Friday!
2. Wedding bands - The one I wanted does not come in my ring size and there's no time to make one cuz we are running out of time. So I need to go and pick out a new one. It is no easy feat, i tell u!! - DONE! Collecting them this weekend!
3. Buy his shirt - this totally slipped my mind.. we have to go shopping this weekend! - Almost done! We bought the shirt over the weekend and just need to make a trip to the tailor's to get the shirt slightly adjusted. Hopefully will be ready by this Friday too!
4. DIY decorations for my ROM venue - have to go DAISO to get stuff.. they've got amazing stuff there! - Going to make the trip with my sister and 3sa this Sunday.. hope to clear everything that day!
5. Confirm the type of flowers we're gonna use for venue + hand bouquet + posies - Now that the colour of his shirt has changed.. so has the theme! I'll have to call the florist to discuss again!

I am quite proud of myself! I got most of the things done within less than a week! I think listing down things to be done is realli effective.. at least for me!

so now we are officially into the 3rd last week of my singlehood. and counting down 20 days to my ROM.. *gasps* too fast too fast!! i am (surprisingly!) suddenly getting cold feet. considering i am so looking forward to getting hitched.. it is kinda unexpected for me to have such feelings, even for myself. but they are not so much of whether he is realli the one? or am i doing the right thing? but more of like, am i suited for marriage? am i realli ready to be someone's wife? these thots crossed my mind yesterday when we were cruising in the car.. and he was blabbering some non-significant stuff next to me.. and my mind jus started wandering at the sound of his voice.. even things like whether i was going to be ok listening to this voice for the next 50 years of my life crossed my mind.. but of cuz.. as of now, i am not tired of it yet.. and i doubt i will tire of it in the near future too. :)

hopefully these jitters will go away soon and i can be more excited than nervous when the day comes.. for now i am jus looking forward to my bachelorette party next weekend..

I AM CERTAIN IT IS GOING TO BE A BLAST! :D

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I cud not wake up.

i took a quick shut-eye in the office's board room today as i was in desperate need of sleep.. i was aiming for no more than 10 min.. so i shut the room's door and propped myself up on one of the chairs and slept away.. i fell into deep sleep after barely 5 minutes.

i am a light sleeper, as most kno, so i was confident i wud hear footsteps if someone did approach the board room. and surely, i did. and not only did i hear footsteps, i heard voices.. and laughters.. a group was walking towards the board room! i've got to wake up now now now!

thing is.. i cud not.. i tried to force myself to move.. but i cud not.. the footsteps were getting louder.. and the voices appearing nearer.. no wait.. the voices appear to be around me now.. BUT I CUD NOT SNAP OUT OF MY NAP.

when i finally did wake up, the room was empty, all was quiet..

did i hear those footsteps or not? did those ppl come in and left? or were "they" in the room with me all the time? was i only dreaming?

guess i'll never know. but one thing i kno, i am going to 拜拜 this weekend.

Something amazing happened to Ms. Tham on August 11!

Congratulations to Ms. Tham and Mr. Seah!! I dunno why but I am exceptionally happy to hear news such as this!

I've taken a peek at Mr. Seah's blog and read abt his blog posts abt u... so darn sweet!! Ms. Tham just might hav found THE ONE!

Ms. Tham.. am waiting for your updates ar... DUN YOU DARE MISS OUT ON ANY SINGLE DETAIL!!!! :D

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Fann-Fair Wong

It's not just us, regular folks, who have this problem ok.. The apparently-internationally-reknowned actress also has the same problem!The too-fair-for-your-skintone-makeup look!

or perhaps that's just how thick her make-up is.

see, without photoshop, she looks just like you and me. i suspect some of us look better, even. *heh!*

Monday, August 18, 2008

The One About The Laser Op

*he* went for a laser surgery last friday for a recurring pain in his shoulder due to the weekly badminton games he plays. perhaps he did not know it wud turn out to be quite a major op so he said he wud check himself in, go for the 45-min op and take a cab home - all on his own.

but u know, being the worry-wart i am.. i can nv be at ease abt such things. so i dropped by the hospital during lunch that day to see if i can give him a bit of moral support.. just in case he got last minute cold feet! (which turned out - he did!) but as typical as he can be.. he was late for the 2-hour-before-op check-in time and i ended up sitting at the hospital ward waiting for him for 45 minute before i had to head back to office. and i didn't even get to see him!

when he finally reached the hospital, i was oredi back in office and he called to tell me that he reached oredi. i sneakily asked, "so u checked into ward 4131, right? Class A ward ar... shiok.."

he - "How u kno???"

me - "I was there jus now la.. u said you'll be there by 12pm wat.."

he - "Oh! No wonder the nurse told me I had visitors even before i check-in! Sorry sorry.. i was late la!"

and then the phone call ended abruptly as the nurses came to get him ready and wheeled him into the OT.

right after work i headed down to the hospital and sat in his ward waiting for abt 2 hours. i was thinking to my self.. "so much for the 45-min op.. it is now more than 4 hours oredi.."

then at abt 6.30pm.. 2 nurses finally wheeled him back.. i guess it was the effect of the general anaesthesia.. he looked so limp and listless on the stretcher.. it pained me a little to see him look so vulnerable.. i have nv seen him like that before.. tears welled up in my eyes a little la.. u kno, i am such a crybaby!

when he was turned in my direction, he smiled weakly but sincerely at me. i smiled back at him and waited for the nurses to settle him down on his bed. his right shoulder was heavily padded and covered with a shoulder guard that prevents his whole right arm from any movement. i cud only imagine the pain he was in.

when the nurses left, he spoke to me briefly abt the op, abt how the Anaestatist was late for over an hour, hence the delay. but the effects of the anaesthesia had not worn out and so he slurred slightly in his speech. he looked rather terrible so i told him to go to bed. but as he had fasted the whole day for the op, he was too hungry to sleep. i went to get some porridge from the nurses and after feeding him the porridge, he went to sleep like a baby.

i quickly gathered my stuff and headed home for a quick wash up so that i can come back and accompany him for the night. doc had said that he will need to stay one night for observation to prevent inflamation and also to let the wound subside a bit before going home.

when i came back, i bought some more food as i was afraid he wud be hungry when he woke in the middle of the night. i dunno abt others but if i were in a hospital, i wud be pretty afraid to be alone and wud be realli terrified of being in the lonely ward. so i tried to return before he woke up so he won't feel so lonely.

but when i opened the door, his eyes were wide open and darted from the tv to me. he said he woke up once i left the room. :S

and as my intuition told me, he was HUNGRY. so we dug into the early supper (it was only 10pm) and watched Olympics tgt. Throughout the night, he could not sleep as his sleeping postures were restricted and his wound hurt a little. on top of which, he was on the glucose drip and had to pee quite often. i did not sleep much but whatever little bit that i did get, were quality sleep.

he was discharged the next morning and we basically spent the weekend at home, watching more Olympics and changing the ice pads for his wound.

looks like we both belittled the impact of the "minor" op. another weekend gone by without accomplishing the things we had in mind for our ROM preparations.

counting down 3 weekends to our ROM.. how ar.. dunno will have time to finish up everything not.... and wat if his wound does not recover in time?? :(

keep ur fingers crossed for me, wun u?

Friday, August 15, 2008

Big Fat F. YEAH!!!

Failed my 1st attempt at the Practical Test for Driving (Auto-transmission).

the emotions rushing thru me now:

1. Embarrassed abt failing cuz i am learning to drive an auto-transmission car. it is often assumed that it is easier to pass an auto-transmission driving test but truth be told - it is realli an urban legend as the instructors told me that auto-transmission driving tests have a higher failure rate than manual-transmission driving tests at SSDC. undeniably, an auto car is way easier to drive compared to a manual car and because of that, testees r expected to drive an auto car flawlessly during the test and testers will fault you for ANY tiny mistake that you make, as compared to a manual-transmission driving test, where they will close a blind eye to the tiny mistakes that you may commit.

*the above paragraph is not an excuse for my failing!

2. Disappointed that I could not clear my driving once and for all.

3. Heartache about the money I paid for the stupid test. And that i have to pay another sum for re-test.

4. Upset that this is a Friday and I'm gonna be feeling lousy the whole eff-ing day.

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Good news tho - managed to book the venue for my ROM.. and mind u, not one, but TWO! so now I have 2 venues to choose from..

Guess all my good luck was used up in this venue-booking thing.

But i think i would rather fail my test and have a venue for my ROM than pass my test and not have a venue for my ROM!

Positive-thinking.. POSITIVE-THINKING!!!

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

32 days to my ROM! *panics!*

things i still have to do:
1. Alter my white dress - and i dun realli kno if the tailor can do wat needs to be done..
2. Wedding bands - The one I wanted does not come in my ring size and there's no time to make one cuz we are running out of time. So I need to go and pick out a new one. It is no easy feat, i tell u!!
3. Buy his shirt - this totally slipped my mind.. we have to go shopping this weekend!
4. DIY decorations for my ROM venue - have to go DAISO to get stuff.. they've got amazing stuff there!
5. Confirm the type of flowers we're gonna use for venue + hand bouquet + posies

i kno all these things sound so easy to settle but it realli isn't so.. each is time-consuming and gonna take a lot of travelling ard. and having to work from monday to friday leaves me time only on weekends. so technically i have abt 4 more weekends i.e. 8 days to finish up all of the above.

just when i thot i have got everything covered.. these little easy-to-overlook things pop up one by one and i am slowly feeling the pressure.

yday i finally dragged my lazy ass to meet my solemnizer at Toa Payoh where he attends the "Meet The People" Session. Yes my solemnizer is a member of parliament in the Toa Payoh GRC. I had to meet him so that he can sign the consent form to be our solemnizer at our ROM and I will need to furnish this form to the authorities for their filing/administration purpose when we pick up our marriage cert 3 days prior to the actual ROM.

Turns out he does not sound as blur as he does on the phone but definitely more fatherly than i thot him to be. He was very detailed in explaining the procedure to me and in the things that I needed to know.

And i have to add - altho he is a white-haired stout man, i can see traces of his once good-looking features on his now-wrinkled face. When he dug into his namecards to hand me one, I saw that he was not only a member of parliament with PAP, but also a big-shot executive with SingTel.

Most imptly, he made me feel realli comfortable and that made me feel realli at ease abt having him solemnize our marriage.

When he went thru the procedure with me, he kept mentioning the words "hubby" and "man and wife". It is a little strange for me at this point but I must admit the fact that I am going to be married is slowly sinking in now.. but it is still strange! :S

But well, that is probably the least of my concerns for now. I realli need to finalize a few things and enlist the help of my biological sister and the sista - the best friend sort. :p

and before that happens - which i kno will turn out great in the capable hands of those 2.. want to say THANK YOU in advance! :)

Monday, August 04, 2008

For a change, i thot i'd blog abt something nice today.

As many would have known by now, the bf and i will be getting legally married this coming sep 14.. on the lunar calendar's Mooncake Festival.

and i have heard this following question once too many - How do you know he is THE ONE?

1st of all, i dare say that we know each other inside out. we can literally finish up each other's sentences and predict the reaction of one another upon hearing some things. and the best part of this is that, we also totally understand why each of us say or do some things.

Example 1:
me - "ya, i don't like to put tattoos on prominient/flashy places."
him - "cuz she thinks that's too loud and she prefers to show it only when appropriate."

*BINGO!*

Example 2:
me - "i would nv quit my job not securing another one 1st."
him - "cuz if she starts to laze ard at home, she might nv be able to get her butt to move again."

*BINGO!*

but well.. some of you might now be thinking.. but these are such trivial stuff.. is that enough for you to decide that he's THE ONE?

of cuz not. trivial as they may be.. they are crucial in keeping the relationship stable and healthy.

but also.. more importantly.. i believe in my 2 mottos in relationship:
1. When 2 persons are together, they should make each other better persons.
2. Love conquers all.

I know the 2nd one sounds so cliche but i truly believe in it. if there is love, anything can be overcomed.

and as for the 1st motto.. it took me years to understand and when i fianlly did, i religiously swore by it.

he has, indeed, made me a better, better person.

i have turned from a perpetual bitter person, to a consciously happy person.

i have changed from a childish girl, to an understanding girlfriend.

i have learnt to truly forgive and forget.. without any excess baggage.

and to be able to become the person i am today.. it took us many years, many quarrels and many tears. and throughout all these time.. he never gave up on me.

and that, is why i kno he is THE ONE.

he teaches me but listens to me as well.

he restricts my splurging habits but spoils me rotten with little pleasures.

he knows what all the things i dislike and never repeats his mistakes twice.

above all.. he treats me with equal respect and importance as himself, if not more.

how much more can i ask from a man? aside from loving me for who i am, which is the most fundamental basis of a relationship, i cannot be more grateful that he is my mentor, best friend, soulmate and lover all at once. I look forward to placing more labels on him such as husband, father and the love of my life.

I am as contented as I can ever be and I can firmly tell everyone that, he is THE ONE for me.

:)