嘟嘴歌王！

been attending too many weddings lately.. and hearing too many news of so and so getting hitched.. makes me wonder when my turn will be.

in my perfect world, i would have been happily married by now, and probably preparing to have my 1st bundle of joy, if not the 2nd. i love kids, i realli do. and i can't wait to have my little girl/boy. of cuz in my perfect world, i will haf 2 girls and 2 boys.. and they will be the most beautiful kids in the world. unfortunately.. i am no where near that lovely picture i've painted for myself.. instead.. i dun see any of that happening any time soon.

just last night i was on the phone with *him*.. and was utterly saddened and disappointed with wat he said. he said he wanted to do better and bigger at his job.. wants to open one more shop, wants to deal with another trade..

so my question is - where do i fit in?

as it is now, he has absolutely no time for me. and he keeps telling me SOON he will have time for me, SOON.. SOON.. SOON.. how soon??? and if he realli starts embarking into his business plans and expansion, i can foresee the amt of time he will have left for me.

not to mention a wedding. none. ling. zilch. :(

come on, it's been 5 years.. i need a promotion!!! and as a conservative and traditional girl, i would nv open my mouth to pop the question. in other words, i would nv kno wat is running thru his mind. cuz i refuse to ask. and hence, i will suffer in silence. be upset. be unhappy. ya.

你 眼 睛 会 笑 弯 成 一 条 桥
终 点 却 是 我 永 远 到 不 了
感 觉 你 来 到 是 风 的 呼 啸
思 念 像 苦 药 竟 如 此 难 熬
每 分 每 秒

我 找 不 到 我 到 不 了
你 所 谓 的 将 来 的 美 好
我 什 麽 都 不 要 知 不 知 道
若 你 懂 我 这 一 秒
我 想 看 到 我 在 寻 找
那 所 谓 的 爱 情 的 美 好
我 紧 紧 的 依 靠 紧 谨 守 牢
不 敢 漏 掉 一 丝 一 毫
愿 你 看 到

昨天在YOUTUBE看了我爱棒棒堂 - 星光帮当来宾的那集。感觉棒棒堂底迪们跟星光帮成员们有些些的火药味。。 而我不了解的是为什么星光帮在那节目上有一点不屑的感觉。。 难道他们对自己的小成就感到骄傲吗？我可是超不喜欢这样的星光帮呢。

不过我爱的宥嘉却没有给我这样的感觉！到他表演时，他是很诚恳地想要跟底迪们交朋友的！不过看得出他也不太放得开。。 不过诚恳的心看得到啦。

那个小美最糟。。根本是狗眼看人低嘛。底迪在跟他合唱时，他根本是一幅骄傲的脸！像底迪不配跟他合唱似的。。讨厌他的勒！

而且平时搞笑的许仁杰也变得很做作。。 我不喜欢啦。

总结来说，我觉得宥嘉和定伟是最“真”的。。 一点都不做作。。 而且能感觉到他们想和底迪们交朋友的真心。:)

帮帮堂就不用说啦。。在他们自己的地盘嘞。。 超放的开的！他们纯真，真实的自己很惹人疼嘞！

而且我最喜欢的棒棒堂底迪跟我最爱的星光帮成员有喜欢对方哦！ 小煜在节目上有说他很欣赏宥嘉的歌路，我也是耶！:)))

其实在看节目时，我也一直不能平衡我的心态。到底要站在谁那边啊。。 棒棒堂或星光帮？？ 严格来说，我喜欢看所有底迪们的表演。。“我爱棒棒堂”是个超赞的节目。。 不过我并不喜欢看所有星光帮的表演耶。。我只爱宥嘉而已。。 而且看完了那集时，我发现我更讨厌一些星光帮成员了。。

而我现在更爱宥嘉了啦。。他真的是天生吃这行饭的！

我在昨天终于买了“爱*星光精选-昨天今天明天”。 “你是我的眼”is on repeat mode. :)

i haf committed a sin!!! a shopping sin!! too much shopping!! 5 new sets of clothes for CNY has turned into 10!! OMFG!!!!

how ar? realli cannot stop shopping leh.. and during this time i shud realli NOT tempt myself anymore BUT i dunno y, yday i went to Tony's shop at Bugis Street, jolly well knowing the kind of stuff in his shop will arouse the shopping monster in me.. and under much control.. i bought one dress. *phew*

BUT!!! before i went to his shop, i waited for 3sa to come meet me at bugis junction and i went crazy with accessory-shopping!! i bought one butterfly necklace from Chomel and 2 dangly chains from Dorothy Perkins - they were having sale!! i am a horrible sinner..

and actually hor.. the reason 3sa and i met in bugis was cuz we wanted to go HAJI LANE. so i thot, since i am in bugis, might as well pay Tony a visit. AND THUS RESULTED IN MY MINI SHOPPING SPREE, prior to HAJI LANE!

and when i was at haji lane, i walked into the shop called MONO (i think). and at 1st glance, i fell in love with the dress hanging beside the front door.. and so i tried it.. and OMG.. it was so so so pretty... i cud not NOT get it!!! and that, was my 11th set of clothes for CNY.

and.. er.. my aim of gg to haji lane that day.. was to buy a black bag!!

so in the process of buying ONLY a black bag, i bought:
2 dresses
3 chains
1 necklace

SINFUL or NOT, u tell me!!!! :(

i need therapy!

Rest in peace, Heath.. I hope you find peace wherever you are and your fans will never forget your contributions to film and entertainment..

You will alwaes be my favourite knight.

a certain ms teo has asked for a follow up to one of my previous posts.. (touched!) firstly i must apologise for not writing abt this earlier cuz it is jus as impt to me as it is to *him* and his family. but i had been too deeply poisoned by 宥嘉 the past week to sit down and realli write abt wat happened.. *paiseh* and so here it is!!

so i mentioned in my past entry that i had been invited to *his* plc for dinner.. but the family is so busy that they haven't been able to set a date for which everyone can make it. and like i said previously.. i dun feel that i owe his entire family an explanation for our being back together. and also, i was realli freaking out abt this dinner invitation.. going to his plc for dinner with his family is such an intimidating thought.. i dunno how to behave at the dinner table.. cuz i dunno how i am being perceived at that very moment.. it wud b so damn bloody awkward.. and so i suggested meeting up with his mom prior to the dinner, just the 2 of us. after all.. i feel that she's the only person i realli haf to answer anything to.

making the call was harder than i thought. i dialled the number so many times only to hang up before the 1st ring. and when the ringtone finally came through, i wished it wud ring forever.. but of cuz it didn't.

me - "hello, hi auntie."
she - "hello? oh, kelly! i recognise ur voice!"
me - "ya it's kelly here.. how are you?"
she - "i'm ok! you?"
me - "i'm fine too. auntie, are you free today or tomorrow? i was thinking of bringing you out for dinner or coffee or something.."
she - "yes yes i'm free later today.. but i am out marketing now so i will give you a call back when i am done, ok?"
me - "ok, sure. i will wait for your call then. bye."
she - "ok, bye!"

after i hung up, i felt heaps better. cuz i cud hear from her voice that she had been happy to hear from me. she had no idea i was going to call her before that so i know her reaction was a genuine one..

a few hours later she called me back and we arranged a time and place and met up later that day. it was so nerve-wrecking sitting there and waiting for her to turn up. and when she did.. i tried to smile as naturally as i can.

me - "auntie."
she - "kelly.. how are you?"
me - "ok la.."

after that we went on to talk abt some 有的没的.. i tried to broach the topic but i jus cudn't.. i didn't kno how to start. and she finally asked me, "你几时要来我家吃饭?"

and i replied her, "你没有请我，我哪里敢去?" and i realli meant that when i said it.. after all, she was the one who banned me from her plc.. i cudn't possibly show up without an invitation, right?

her reply to my answer was realli very heartwarming, i actually cried.

she - "你几时都可以来啊，我们是一家人嘛，随时都welcome你。"

and she said that holding both my hands. and when she saw that i was crying, she continued, "我们不要吵架了啦.我们开开心心的过年，ok?"

after that, i calmed myself down and said my piece.

me - "i kno u might not blame me for wat happened, but i still want to make some things clear cuz i feel that i owe u an explanation for my past behaviour. i think that there are many misunderstandings between us. maybe we misinterpreted each other's intentions.. but at the end of the day, it is necessary and impt that we haf a relationship with each other, even when *he* is not ard.. none of us has done anything wrong.. jus that we are different. i hope u can accept our differences and i can assure u that if we both put in some effort, we can achieve the relationship that we want and that *he* will be happy."

i had a long talk with *him* prior to meeting his mom.. and we figured this was the only way i wud be able to have a real relationship with his mom. not that i didn't mean wat i said, cuz i meant every word. the difference this time is that i made the 1st step to being sincere and truthful and i hope in time to come, she wud do the same.. and not do wat she did to me previously. the last thing i want is to put him in a spot and if i haf to give in to his mom 1st, then i will. after all, it is not like i did nothing wrong to begin with. i had, at times, behaved like a princess when i stayed with them and that.. is not right. so i apologize for the things i haf done wrong.. maybe soon enough, his mom will realise wat she did wrong too.

and so that was it. even if i go for dinner at *his* plc now, i wun feel intimidated cuz i haf spoken my piece and she knows wat is gg thru my mind. i will not be afraid to smile and haf fun at dinner.

wat good issit to make an enemy instead of a fren, right? maybe this experience will help me to grow up, make me a more patient and understanding person.. i dunno.. but i kno one thing for sure.. if i keep on doing the right things, nothing will go wrong. and so, i will do jus that.

ms teo, this update detailed enuff for u? :p

林宥嘉精选！

我爱的人

i like the way he says "不要拿出你的实力" twice to make his point. SO CUTE!!

那些日子

this song has such a serene and sweet effect on me.. he looks so happy when singing it!

到不了

宥嘉和康康的合唱。。有一点搞笑成分啦，不过我有小小被感动哦。。

你把我灌醉

i love the music arrangement for this number.. this performance 很有感染力！Yoga is at his best on this one! the make-my-hair-stand kind of performance... damn power!

Last Order

his most sexy performance!!!! i like the way he sings lazily YET so in control of his voice.. *drools* (i am no pervert ok.) :p the cantonese version also by eason is called "New Order".

你是我的眼

this performance is full of emotion.. the lyrics made tears well up in my eyes.. his powerful voice is perfect for this song.

我的宥嘉毒瘾还没过耶。。 it's like i can't get enough of him!!!

宥嘉， 加油！:)

糟糕。。 我中了林宥嘉的毒。。 只要我清醒的时候，我就很想听到他的声音，他的歌。。 就连走在街上我都会轻声地唱出，“你是我。。的眼。。”。 怎么办？？

今天我一到office就立刻上YOUTUBE听林宥嘉的“那首歌”。 每听一次，就想哭一次。“那首歌”的歌词真的非常感人。。加上林宥嘉的独特嗓音和悲情唱腔，真的不被感动都难。

开始看“超级星光大道”的时候，被林宥嘉吸引的原因是因为他的歌声很独特，加上他选唱的歌曲都是我本身喜欢的。过后，发现他唱歌时很进入状况，非常投入。。真的深深吸引了我。。

但最近开始在YOUTUBE看他全部的表演后，我发现他的性格实在很迷人！他私底下真的是个搞笑高手，而且说话非常有深度。。一点都不像是个二十岁的年轻人。。肢体语言也都显示出他的自信和对音乐的热诚。自然而不做作的态度真的让我非常欣赏他！

他唱歌和表演的方式是我所见过的新人当中，最有魅力的一个。不知道有多少人跟我一样觉得和认同 - 谢霆锋是其中一个表演时最难看的嘴脸， 让人看了他的表演后想揍他一顿的感觉。 而林宥嘉表演时的嘴脸，实在令人陶醉。。 因为我看得出的表演的时候自己也是很陶醉，仿佛乐在其中。。 非常enjoy的感觉。。











看到了吗？他唱歌是多么的投入！我觉得他比专业的歌手还认真，还能放得开。。真的很迷人！

其实。。我觉得林宥嘉唱歌时的嘴形很可爱。。 嘟嘟的然后不时会形成一个完美的"O"形。。 他唱歌时的脸孔让我想起我的狗。。 可怜地很可爱。。很想伸手去疼他的感觉！真是迷死人了啦！

在他这么多的表演当中，我最喜欢的就是“你是我的眼”和"Last Order" 因为这两首歌他真的演绎得很棒。。放了很多的感情进去。。 加上"Last Order"是陈奕迅的歌。。 我当然喜欢啦！

我真的中了林宥嘉的毒了。。到底YOGA及时才推出他的个人专辑呢？



爱你啦，宥嘉！ *o*

omg, can cry CAN?!



he reminds me a bit of TAKUYA leh. issit him or issit me??? :p

haf been glued to my cable tv at home lately. have been watching E! and Channel V mostly. and suddenly finding MTV sooo boring.

i am surprised at how good the shows on E! are. (for those with cable, it is on channel 80.) or maybe cuz of my bitchy and live-for-celebrity-gossip nature, i am highly entertained by their celebrity "True Hollywood Stories" and "Top 20 Most Expensive Celebrity Weddings". (a lot of these Top 20 stuff like "Top 20 Supermodels Who Made Bank" - i.e. Richest, "Top 20 Favourite Child Stars" etc. etc. all very intriguing! :p) i have seen the "True Hollywood Stories" of Angelina Jolie, Nicole Kidman, Johnny Depp, Will Smith and Britney Spears so far. and i have learnt that Angelina Jolie has the best red-carpet style, Nicole Kidman went through a miscarriage during the period of her divorce from Tom Cruise (sobs!), Johnny Depp had never wanted to be an actor, Will Smith has family gatherings with both his ex-wife's family and current wife's family ALTOGETHER and lastly, Britney Spears had cheated on Justin Timberlake, leading to the split. How's that for a weekend's worth of tinseltown news?? :p (secretly proud of my discoveries - even tho i might be the last on earth to kno! haha!)

The most expensive celebrity wedding was a ridiculous 10 million dollars. MADNESS! and i dun even kno who that celebrity is. hahaha.

and my daily dose of tw entertainment news/programs comes from Channel V. i am so loving the program 模范棒棒堂! it is basically a show (full of nonsense) hosted by 范伟琪 and the boys of 棒棒堂. they are darn funny!! but not in the stupid way but in a very real life way. like they are realli off-camera and talking to each other regardless of who is around. they are so real and i realli enjoy the show a lot. the best thing is they seem to show a few episodes in a day! Channel V seems to realli like 棒棒堂 a lot cuz they show their advertisements and MVs relentlessly! i wonder if their career started off with Channel V.. i'm sorry but i haven't done my homework on them so i dunno.. but i will soon! it's like, i dun even see 飞轮海's MVs AT ALL. how weird it that??

and of cuz.. the very show i haf been denied of for the longest time.. 超级星光大道 on TVBS.. i love 林宥嘉! dunno if that's the way it is written.. his voice is oh-so-charming!!! and his face.. so adorable! wth, he is only 20!!!! *bangs wall* i feel like a cradle snatcher with all the going crazy with the boys of 棒棒堂 and 林宥嘉!

ok but the guy i like from 棒棒堂 is same age as me.. so not so bad. haha.. but i am a week older than him. :p


i like 敖犬 (bottom row, 2nd guy) and 小煜 (bottom row, last guy on the right) cuz 敖犬 looks like Edison and 小煜 looks like 方力申! actually i think this boyband has a lot of 明星脸s. the 1st guy from the left on the bottom row looks like 牛奶 from energy.. his name is 阿伟.


and him.. his voice.. omg.. when he sang 你是我的眼, my heart melted and i almost cried!!!

i have yet to find out how old 小煜 is but i will.. i alwaes need to know the age of the guy i like from TV so as to put a kind of level of maturity on him, so i kno wat to expect when i see him on TV. yea ok, weird, i kno. :p

so the next time i walk into a cd store, i am going to look for 棒棒堂's album and very possibly buy it.

does anyone kno when 林宥嘉's album is coming out? or issit out oredi?? I CAN'T WAIT!!

omg.. i am back into my boyband frenzy again!!!

*ashamed closet boyband fan*

i wun say i am not freaking out. cuz i am actually realli feeling damn scared. after all, i haf not seen them for 8 months now.. that is quite some time considering i stayed with them for 3 months before totally cutting myself off them. i'm not sure how to look to them, how to talk to them, or even how to smile in front of them. are they realli ready to accept me in their lives again?

i hate how that sounds. why does it look like i am at their mercy? like i am the one that did wrong? i guess tt is the exact impression the empress dowager wants to give out. i may be at wrong, but that does not mean i haf nothing to fault them for.

1st of all, this is between me and *him*. why are they poking their noses into our relationship? who are they to deny me? to me, tt is unfair. and totally uncalled for.

2ndly, the truth is she did talk behind my back. instead of reflecting upon her own actions (and mistakes), she is behaving like she is the one who had been tattled on. WTF! one can play the same game and if u can do it to me, why can't i do it to you??? 这叫以牙还牙！

lastly, i've said this b4 and i will say it again. if she realli loves her son, why wud she make things so difficult for him? by her denying me did not do ANY harm to our relationship and if anything, it made us STRONGER. so she jolly well know where she stands in this relationship, if she insists on being a part of it.

but the bottom line is - i am afraid of having to go back and reconcile with his family.. but i kno that if i dun, we can nv take the relationship to the next level or even get married. and if i haf to do things out of my own free will to makes things better between his family and me, i guess i will. i will get through it for his sake, not mine.

i realli hope this is a good thing for us.. me being invited back to his hse for dinner. i am so nervous abt it.. i dunno wat to expect.. but i will do my best.. TRY not to get irritated with the dowager's antics. it's going to take all i haf to fight (and win) this battle but i am determined.

and i will be wiser this time.

*he*'s back!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D

i merely spent an hour and a half with him but it was quality time. and i cud tell he realli missed me, probably more than i did. *ashamed*

and i kno this cuz his flight touched down 5.25pm, by 6pm he was home and calling me, telling me he's coming to meet me for dinner. by 7.45, he had unpacked, freshened up and already downstairs my hse.

the moment he saw me, he gave me a small but emotional hug. this is quite something considering he is nv the type to display public affection. on top of that he planted a big kiss on my head. WOW. i felt so loved and missed!!

after that we went for dinner at the curry rice place along Jalan Besar. he told me abt his Shanghai holiday (which as I had imagined, turned out boring for him) and how he hated the ppl there cuz they were rude and arrogant (and also mercenary). on top of which his colleague cum buddy, Ronald, did not go for this trip and that added to his boredom. the standard of living there is similar to Singapore, hence, everything was either more expensive or abt the same price. he ended not buying anything at all for anybody. (except for me. :D) for the 5 days in Shanghai he spent only SGD300 in all.

he sent me home after dinner as he had to meet another fren who was flying off the next day for work and he had not met up in a long time. so we sat downstairs at my void deck for a while before i went home and he gave me my "present". he bought me a pair of puma sneakers in red and white that resembles something like this:



i cud not find a picture of it online. but this is close!

he made me pay him a dollar for them (old wives' tale - don't give shoes to ppl u love cuz that wud make them run away from u. but if u realli haf to buy shoes for someone as a gift, they haf to pay a partial amt of the total cost so it wud not make it a "gift".) but i bargained for it so i ended up paying 10 cents. HAHA. aiya, it is just 意思意思 only ma... 随便啦！ :p

after which i also gave him his belated xmas present.. (i kno super late but realli not my fault cuz the thing i had wanted to get him was out of stock so i was on the waitlist for the next stock arrival.) it was a prada wallet which in my opinion he needs badly cuz no.1, his current wallet is in super bad shape!! doesn't even look like a wallet anymore; and no. 2, he is promoting to agency manager this year and i think he needs to look good (and be exquisitely endorsed) to give ppl the impression of success. i oredi think he is successful for his age but image is definitely impt. with him getting his car soon, he can't be seen using an old beat-up wallet!

i kno that no matter wat i buy him he will like it.. and even if he doesn't, he will still use it. but i appreciate the fact that he alwaes looks happy, no matter wat he receives. but i realli like wat i got him from prada, in black saffiano leather.. the prada trademark. one of the plain and simple designs (my fashion motto - less is more) that nv goes out of style:



the kind of designer wallet men should carry, expensive but subtle. i hate those loud loud designs that are screaming in your face, "I AM BRANDED!" :p

so when he opened up the present, he seemed truly happy. i think he realli likes it. :) i'm happy to see him happy. :D

so i went home and found a little spot to proudly display my new shoes in a corner of my room.. so whichever way i look, i cud see. like how Kyoko in "Beautiful Life" proudly displayed the red shoes that Shuji bought her in her room. :)

rest of the night, we didn't talk much, a few sms-es and i went to bed. woke up happy and contented this morning, feeling like there realli is nothing more i cud ask for. :)

think 2008 might actually be a good year for me!

Things we can learn from a dog

Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
Eat with gusto and enthusiasm.
If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.
Be loyal.
Run, romp and play daily.
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.
Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
When you're happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
No matter how often you're scolded, don't buy into the guilt thing and pout...run right back and make friends.
When it's in your best interest, practice obedience.
Let others know when they've invaded your territory.
Take naps and stretch before rising.
Never pretend to be something you're not.
Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
On hot days, drink lots of water and lay under a shady tree.

the recent passing of MC King got me thinking a bit. we shud realli live everyday like it's the last.. and i asked myself, wat is the one thing i wud regret not doing today if i died tomoro. and tt is not appreciating my loved ones and telling them how much i love them.

so after a dry spell from my sister for a long time now, i decided to call her last night. didn't haf any agenda but thot we shud jus catch-up. jus listening to her voice and getting up to speed to wat her recent concerns had been, nothing much. made me feel a hell lot better oredi.

everyone lives their lives differently.. and all haf different objectives. some want a successful career, some want fame and fortune.. and for me, i just want emotional satisfaction and stability. these are things i wud give up everything for. i live my life for the ultimate objective of having a happy family of my own.. and a family that is contented and healthy. and if i died tomoro, i wud go peacefully knowing my mom is healthy, my sister is happy and my brother finally grown up. and that i haf done the best i cud to make them proud of me.

and then it occurred to me.. "what abt *him*?"

and i didn't realli haf an answer. there are too many things i want for him and i cannot imagine myself not being a part of it. w/o me.. i kno he wud lose direction for a while.. but eventually, he will find back his drive and motivation.. and emerge stronger than before, better than before. and i will haf to accept the fact tt he will get over me, and he will move on. but wherever i will be, i will be happy for him and his success in life, as long as he is happy.

we talked abt this before and i alwaes told him he has to let me go before him. cuz if he goes before me, i wud not be able to take the heartache and agony.. but in actual fact, i hope he goes before me.. cuz at least i kno i will be with him till his last moment to share all his hopes and fears and be with him till the end to reasure him and comfort him..

我会陪你走完你人生的路，不过你要答应我，当我时间到的时候，你一定要来接我，ok? 不要丢下我自己走，好吗？

it's weird how people from entirely different family backgrounds can grow so close to each other and become more/as impt as ur own family. but when it does, u kno it is something beautiful and u will nv want to let go of its beauty and joy. but when the time comes to let go, it is the time you share the beauty and joy of your love with everyone.. and that is the spark that brightens the world and hope that lights up someone's life during the most difficult times.

i want to give all my strength and blessings to those in need of the spark and hope during this trying time of MC King's passing.. and pray that all will find their channel of comfort to tide them through this tough period.

把握每一天。。 珍惜所有关心你和爱你的人。。 不要让你这一生有任何后悔。。

the morning after the wedding, *he* left for his company trip to Shanghai. was upset that he did not take me along but on the other hand, i think it's a good time for us to be apart.. kinda like a test of trust for us, but realli, more for me. it is not that i dun trust him, i do. i jus dun trust the ppl ard him.. and that i am jus a wee bit too possessive of him. i am learning not to be, trust me.

so on day 1 of him being away from me, i went out to stock up on food inventory. bought a cordless kettle, a bolster, a mug, clothes pegs and some toiletries. rest of the day i slept and watched a lot of tv. at night theresa asked me over for a dvd session.. we watched 换换爱 and it is so sweet.. i am only at disc one and i am oredi addicted. i prefer 王传一 over 贺军翔 but i kno at the end of the show, i am going to fall in love with 贺军翔 somehow. but i will still love 王传一. :)

day 2 was pretty much the same. i slept, watched tv, slept. at abt 6pm. sally sms-ed me to ask if i wanted to join them for movie later that night and i politely refused, saying my stomach still felt a bit unwell so i was going to stay home to nurse it. but truth was i felt a bit weird going out with them w/o *him*. and seeing them tgt will make me miss *him* more. but less than 15 min later, agus called. he asked me to join them and refused to take no for an answer and so i agreed. was touched that they offered to keep me company in *his* absence.

they came to pick me up and we went out for dinner at swensen's and watched "Elizabeth: The Golden Age". it was ooo-kay. after the movie, they sent me home too.. realli sweet.

earlier that evening agus sms-ed *him*, "we are bringing your gf out."

*he* replied, "why like that?"

agus replied, "cuz we are 3 very bored ppl."

*he* replied, "tell her i miss her so so so so so much!"

before agus cud reply, *he* replied again, "take care of her for me! thanks!"

*****sweeeeeet!!!!!*****

but i wondered, why didn't he jus sms me??? *scratches head*

day 3, i did the same thing as day 1. watched tv, slept, went to 3sa's plc for dinner (her mom invited me.. so nice of her) and we continued our 换换爱 marathon. :p

day 4 - today. meeting my aunt for dinner at her place tonight for her famous 鸡汤米粉. :p it is super-duper delicious! i cud eat it everyday!

day 5 (tuesday) - no plans yet.

day 6 (wednesday) - baby's gonna b back! :)

can't wait. but i keep wondering why *he* doesn't sms nor call me when he is overseas. :( at least there is an improvement this time, he called me when he reached shanghai. last time dun even haf sms one lor.

the other time when i was in BKK for my company trip, i called him every night w/o fail.. plus a few sms-es here and there. he also called and sms-ed me quite a bit. but why everytime he goes overseas he doesn't call/sms??

WHY WHY WHY?? :(

sigh.. oh well.. i am jus missing him, i guess.

had the longest, happiest, saddest, most painful weekend of my life.

Agus and Sally's wedding

It was on Thursday and for auspicious reasons, all the "sisters" had to be at her hse at 4.30am. *yawn*

me being the bridesmaid cud not set a bad example so i reached at 4.30am sharp. and was the 1st naturally. other than these 2 other sisters who had stayed over.

a bit of background story before i begin. Sally and i met each other through our bfs, or rather my bf and her then-bf, now-hubby. and we haf been double-dating every other weekend ever since. i get along with most of my bf's fren's gfs but Sally and i get along like a house on fire. seriously. we're the same age and separated by 16 days only. *both proudly librans* :)

so it was natural when agus told us they were getting married that they wanted *him* and i to be their bestman and bridesmaid.

the purpose of me telling that tidbit of information is because, i haf to stress that i do not kno any of the "sisters". they were either Sally's close frens or ex-colleagues who oredi knew each other.

but i nv had problems getting along with strangers so i was at ease abt meeting them and having to spend hours with them that day. unless, of cuz, they deliberately resist me (like 自闭症).

when i arrived at Sally's plc, i met 2 of the sisters who had stayed over, ZH and KT. i wudn't say they ignored me, but they were not friendly. then i knew the morning was not gg to be easy for me. they wud look at me (with some disgust) but not talk to me. when they asked a question and i answered, they wud not acknowledge the reply and ask out loud again. :( so i resigned to being invisible for a while.

by 5.30am, the rest of the sisters arrived (6 of them altogether) and luckily, the other 4 of them was alright. LA was especially friendly and so were another 2 of them which i cannot remember their names now. :p

they huddled together to discuss wat was the minimum amt of angpao they wud settle for the gate crashing session and when they decided on the amt, ZH said, "ok, $XXX divided by 6 of us is how much?"

LA follows to ask, "6? not 7? plus bridesmaid leh."

ZH quickly replied, "no, 6. dun count bridesmaid. they dun haf one."

the rest keeps quiet.

ok, lemme clarify - it is not that i want to get a share of that angpao. in fact i haf rejected even the angpao sally and agus wanted to give me for being their emcee for their dinner that night. sally wanted to reimburse me for the transportation as well but i refused. i was as happy as she was for the wedding and it realli wasn't abt the money for me. BUT, the least they (or rather, ZH) cud haf done was do this behind closed doors! and not say all that out loud for me to hear. tsk tsk tsk.. a bit wrong if u ask me. i was only glad that sally didn't hear any of this.

so when the groom and his brother entourage arrived downstairs, sally asked me to stay upstairs in the room with her, so i did. (i was glad i didn't haf to join the sisters in their bargaining.) and from the 2nd level, i cud see (and hear) clearly wat went on downstairs from our window. and when the whole entourage approached the gate, i cud not peel my eyes off *him*! i had oredi seen him in the suit during our fitting previously but i dunno wat was so different abt him that morning. he looked so charming! i did notice tho, that he got his new haircut the day prior to that morning. or maybe i jus only haf eyes for him. oops, sorry for the mushy-mushy!! :p

the rest of the day was pretty predictable. playing games with the groom and his brothers, tea ceremony, lots of photo-taking.

before 2pm, the morning session was over and we all went back home to rest and prepare for the dinner. *he* and i were the emcees for the dinner.

i reached home slightly after 2pm and slept till 3.30pm. reached the salon at 4.15pm and my stylist rushed like mad in order for me to leave the salon at 5pm. (i was supposed to reach the hotel at 5pm for the "sisters" briefing. but learning my lesson from this morning, i decided i shud b late too.) and sure enuff, by 4.58pm, i was out of the salon's door looking like angelina jolie in Mr and Mrs Smith, according to my sytlist. haha.

i arrived at the hotel at 5.30pm and went through the emcee's script with *him*. and after that, there was pretty much nothing else to do. the sisters briefing nv took place, and if there was, maybe i wasn't invited? but u kno, i realli dun care.

we basically lounged ard the hotel lobby until 8pm. absolutely tired from the morning's activities, plus both *he* and i were not feeling well. by then, my angelina jolie's hair in "Mr and Mrs Smith" looked like angelina jolie's hair in africa.

i didn't realli eat my dinner in peace as i was afraid of missing my cues to go up on stage the entire night. but our "performance" was pretty flawless in my opinion. i got a few offers to emcee at other weddings. :p

Viral Stomach Infection

we arrived at the groom's plc at 7am and all of us were starving, considering most of us got up at 3am. food had not arrived and so ronald (one of the brothers as well as *his* colleague),*he* and i went to the coffeeshop downstairs for breakfast (the guys in their suits and me in my bridesmaid dress! *he* had been starving so bad that he started to haf gastric oredi. he took only one bite into his noodles and ran to the restroom to puke. and remained pale and pukey for the rest of the day.

as for me, my stomach only started acting up abt 12pm that day. i had assumed it was the breakfast i ate at the coffeeshop that morning that gave me food poisoning. when i reached home, i had diarrhoea like nobody's business and trust me, u dun want the details. and i also threw up twice at home, with much control not to cuz i kno throwing up is bad for ur stomach and it jus makes me wanna throw up more.

and by the time i reached the salon to do my hair, my stylist asked, "where are all ur accessories?? no earrings??"

i told him, "i am so sick and feeling so terrible that my brain cannot match properly. so i decided not to match anything at all." he then started to hand me all sorts of medicine, for flu, for headache, for fever, for everything. but nothing worked.

by 7pm, i was working up a mean fever at the hotel. running back and forth the restroom. literally 上吐下泻. it was like we were both taking turns to run to the toilet and both our faces were as pale as ghosts. ronald's wife came to the hotel with more panadol and we both took it and by 8pm, both our fevers subsided and both stomachs felt better. we took the stage like 2 perfectly healthy persons. (i surprised myself, even.)

after the dinner, we headed straight to the clinic as both our diarrhoeas and nausea came back. the doctor told us it had not been food poisoning but viral stomach infection. and very likely one of us passed to the other. (i think *he* passed to me.) we both went back to rest and were better by the next morning.

CONCLUSION

at the end of the day, i didn't get any pictures at all, cuz i felt too sick to be interested in taking photos. :( so now gotta wait for sally to send me the photos. and overall.. i had fun, even tho i was sick throughout. we kno a lot of agus's frens so it was also like a catching-up session. and *he* had been very sweet to me that day.. taking care of me even tho he was sick too. and i think sally and agus had been very very happy. when we left the hotel, agus held both *his* and my hands tightly.. not saying a single word.. i thot he was gg to cry. :p but it was a very emo and happy moment for us. sally gave me a big hug and called me, "亲爱的Kelly". i felt so touched. :)

hmm.. i wonder when my day will come? :/

NYE was 1 mad round of mahjong from 11pm to 4.30am! (i kno, i kno, we are the slowest players in the entire universe. hahaha!) i was the biggest loser and lost almost 80 bucks and since *he* was the big (and only) winner, he decided to cut everyone's loss by half, jus to make all happy. :)

things are turning out at my new place better than i had hoped.

i haf finally unpacked everything and the new room is now neat, tidy, spic and span. (except for the bits of wood shavings left behind from assembling the TV console and chair from IKEA, i haf yet to find the broom in the hse. :p)

on the afternoon of NYE, *he* went with me to IKEA in the afternoon and we shopped for my TV console for my new TV and a chair for my room. after we picked out wat we wanted, *he* suggested i get a little lamp for my room to soften the effect of the harsh white lightings the room currently has. so at the lightings section, we picked out a retro-looking white blow-glass lamp, with soft yellow lighting.

when we walked past the gardening section, *he* suggested i get a little plant for my room to brighten up the environment. so we picked out a tiny plant that looks a lot like a little christmas tree and named it Chris (for obvious reasons). it was a good name cuz we do not know the gender of the tree and Chris is a unisex name. haha.

so along with those, we also got a red cushion for my new light-coloured wooden chair, and other little accessories that IKEA is so famous for and i love to death abt it!

we went on home to fix up the stuff and *he* knocked and hammered for abt an hour before my new chair and TV console was ready for use. (thanks to theresa for coming over and loaning us her toolbox!) the new TV is now sitting proudly on my new console and the chair we bought which we thought we took the light-coloured one turned out to be the black colour one when we opened it for assembling. but it's ok cuz the red cushion is looking nice on it and the black chair matches my black TV too. :p

and now that i haf put everything in their place in the room, it is starting to haf some personality. one that makes me happy to be in. i will show some photos soon!!

the landlord and landlady has been bearable. tho they can b pretty picky abt minor things (to me). here are some of the rules they haf set for me so far:

1. air-con must be turned off once you are out of the room. even if you are just running downstairs to find your towel that has flown off from your bamboo hanging out of the window. and air-con can only be turned on from 10pm onwards. but since i do not sleep with air-con on, i am going to flout this one. (yes my towel is gone forever cuz i cud not find it downstairs and when i came back upstairs in that short 5 minutes, the landlady has checked out my room and noted that i left the air-con on.)

2. only 2 pairs of shoes are allowed at the shoe rack at any one time. (i've nv placed more than 2 pairs of shoes there during my 5-days-stay so far. so why are they complaining abt this too?)

3. no visitors. if ur fren wants to pass u toolbox, ask them to wait outside until u r done with toolbox. (so theresa came to pass me toolbox and the landlady hasn't been too happy abt having theresa in the room. they haven't made noise abt *him* in my room yet so i shall not ask. :p)

4. washing of clothes can be only be done once a week and only one load per week. (bloody hell, that means i can only wash my whites and colours separately once every fortnight????)

these are the rules established so far in the past 5 days. let's hope no unreasonable ones will be put in place anytime soon.

other than the above, the landlady and her husband are ok la. they leave me alone all the time and the location of their hse is perfect. with theresa at the next block, i tend to feel less alone. her mom has invited me to their plc for dinner tonight. :)

tmr is agus and sally's wedding.. i haf to be at her hse at 5am! which means i will haf minimal sleep tonight and it is going to be a mad rush for me all the way from after work today. will take loads of pictures and upload them when i next post. :)

and... I WILL HAF CABLE TV BEGINNING THIS FRIDAY! can't wait!! :D